Sunday, April 8, 2007

a lovely Easter Sunday

what an awesome day. started with an amazing service by pastor R who had us all in tears about pain that we suffer every day. it's interesting how we try to push it away and say, but so and so has it so much worse than i do. and we forget that God only gives us what we can handle. so does that mean bella and ook can handle so much more than i? that's why i think bella's name is faith. but that's another story. faith and fearless. perfect together. fear brings us doubt. without doubt, we are fearless, without fear, we are faith. makes sense to me.

so we had a total of 20 people for dinner. and i loved every second of it. granted i didn't get to sit much and talk as much as i wanted to. but i loved it. the bustle. dinner being made extremely well. everyone laughing and having fun. the fact that it was blood family and church family together. it made me really happy. i'm exhausted and my feet hurt and my mascara finally smudged on me (atta boy rimmel mascara!), but i am very happy and very content. it's so funny. before i hated having company. i hated having people over. but now...i just want my house filled with laughter and joy and love. i want drop ins. (just not during nap time!) maybe that's why i want a big family? maybe why we got this awesome house?

blessings are funny.

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