Monday, October 27, 2008

Not a lot going on

Ok, I really haven't written in awhile. You forget how easy it is not to blog. Maybe I've been too busy? Maybe I've had nothing to say? I don't know.
I almost came downstairs last night to do some blogging. For some unknown reason, I woke up at 3. Wide awake. Didn't fall back asleep until 5. I kept thinking. And not even of important things, which is quite sad. Did I have a babysitter for this day? Did I have something to wear? Are we going out too much next week? Etc. Sad. I tried praying for awhile, but my brain kept slipping into weirdness. And I kept having to sneeze. So that didn't help.
Now it's 7:30 and I'm struggling to stay awake. Supposed to go to the gym today but my house is a disaster. And I'm having company for supper.
Wow. This blog is boring.
I've been doing quite a bit of researching into my own life for the next book(s). I'm kicking myself now for having thrown out my journals 4 years ago. I did so because I didn't want to have the reminders. And now I'm ready to remember. But I did find an old book of quotes I collected and am remembering why that one and what I was thinking. And I'm going through an old book of poems. So I'm remembering a lot. And I'm not slipping into any icky zones without being able to come out. I'm copying old cd's onto my laptop to bring me back there. Music always reminds me of things.
Gaffer is really enjoying school. I love watching him write his name. Rockstar hubby is insanely busy with tree work. And I'm not complaining!

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

second thoughts, my brain is too tired

i'm thinking too much. i hate it when i think too much because then i second guess myself. i've written in large letters, 'just write'. grrr...grr....grr.....

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

conversations with my gaffer and God

gaffer: Mommy, I want to bring my real Pirate Treasure Chest
me: what are you talking about?
g: to heaven. You said, God had toys for me to play with in heaven.
me: yeah.
g: but I want to bring my own Pirate Treasure chest
me: why don't you ask God?
g: (eyes closed tightly) God, can i...
me: may I
g: may I bring my Pirate Treasure Chest to heaven?
me: what did God say?
g: He said yes.
me: did you say thank you?
g: thank you God. (pause) He said 'you're welcome'.

Thursday, October 2, 2008


I'm bragging.
I wrote 5,000 words yesterday. And I have to say, it was tough, but I got through it and I was able to come back to reality instead of staying in that dark place.
Last night was fabulous as three other couples dressed up and we went out with rockstar hubby for his birthday. My mom brought me back a gorgeous dress from Italy and after putting a slip under it (ah, that's what they're for) I looked hot.
Dinner was Thi Fusion and it was amazing of course and then we went to a bizarre movie. It was 'burn after reading' and I have to say...yuck.

So off I go to ignore the housework and run errands.
Tomorrow I get to pull apart the backyard veggie garden and maybe part of the porch. What will I uncover?